You didn’t know I knew what the repercussions were? No fucking shit I did. That doesn’t fucking mean you shove it up my face. That’s not going to make it better and I’m just going to get mad and lash out on you and make it worse. I fucking apologized for what I did. What else do you want me to do? Cause all I want to do is kill myself right now.
And teachers expect me to say something in class when they don’t want to hear it? Fuck it. I’m done talking. They don’t want to hear it, I won’t say it.
I don’t understand what’s going. I don’t understand who I am anymore. But what can I do? I can’t stop myself from being this fake person that has surfaced.